Change

Verb  : To make the form, nature, content, future course, etc of (something) different than what it is or from what it would be if left alone. 

 

I wanted to start a new blog because my last few drawings have not been up to par so I need to take a break and do something else.  I realized I've been a prisoner of my own thoughts. Earlier this year I lost my residual hearing for 3 months and the only thing I could hear was my inner voice (which typically has a Cockney accent 75% of the time).  In just a month and a few days I will become a prisoner of my thoughts all over again, but only for a few weeks. This time I want to make the experience different.

I spent my life trying to hide my deafness by putting myself in the most challenging situations. I realize now that it only makes me think about it more. I've come to peace with it, even with the daily struggles, but sometimes it's hard not to get down about it especially when I can see the way I'm treated versus how others are treated. Unfortunately, I've dealt with it my whole life.

I'm sick of being down about it, I'm sick of hiding it, I'm sick of feeling less worthy because of it. I'm ready to change my thought process and just simply live my life as happy as I can. I realize I have the choice to wake up and tackle each day as it comes and not just assume that life is a domino effect of bad luck and that's what I'm stuck with. 

My view of wanting to change started earlier this month because almost everyday I spend my time around someone who I believe is the happiest, most carefree person I've ever met and everyday I wish I had that attitude no matter what happens. This has been by far the hardest year of my life and I believe most of it is how I make it. 

So with that being said, I hope you join me on my road of change, even if I stumble along the way. 

Now lets not forget the funny stuff....