The future is unwritten, so write it well...

 It's been a long time since I've posted a blog, but then again life has been nothing but hectic. School was wrapping up, graduation occurred, holidays came and went, ended up making some major changes, took the boards and passed it, got a job and now I'm enjoying my last 3 days before I start work.

I've been living by a couple quotes since the new year started...

"You never know how strong you are... until being strong is the only choice you have."


And...

"Good things come to those who wait."  

As some people may not know.. I left my fiance earlier this year... I'm not here to share the details. He is a great guy but I felt that it wasn't meant to be for the two of us.

My biggest goal in life is to have a family, to have 2-3 kids, and to make a difference. I feel like it's one of the most challenging goals I can set for myself. I want to make sure I'm with the right person before settling down with someone I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. 

It's hard not to feel pressured to settle especially since I'm getting closer to 30 every day. Good things come to those wait is something I firmly believe in. I want to find the kind of love where you can't even explain it, the kind of love where you just know, the kind of love where you stick together through thick and thin. This is the kind of love I rarely get to see, but when it's there, it's obvious to everyone around them. That is the kind of love I'm searching for and I don't care how long it takes me. 

Right now I'm taking the time to search a little deeper into myself, start a new life, make new friends and figure out what truly makes me happy.

It's hard to make drastic changes. I need time for myself. It's something I haven't had the chance to do since I've been so wrapped up in school for the last 7 years. I think it's important to take a break gain a clear perspective before charging forward once again. 

I look forward to this new phase as I'm still mending from the things I left, the people I had to hurt, and the comfort of knowing what my future was going to be like. 

The picture that says the future is unwritten, so write it well.... I hope that I make better choices, smile more, laugh more, love more, and take the time to really think about everything in general. There's no rush especially because one road can make your life totally different from another road you could have taken. I don't want to have regrets or just simply settle because it's expected of me. 

2013 has been a rough year so far, but that doesn't mean the rest has to be....