Love is Impervious to Logic

This has been quite a week. Started working, had Valentine's day and my birthday all in one week.
It's been a great week too and I've had more time to relax than I did going to school. I can certainly get used to working and being able to come home and have a life. I feel a little more complete.

One thing I learned last week was that I'm hearing even more than I thought I was. My hearing has increased and I hope it still continues to climb as I've only had my implant for 6 months. I'm starting to think this implant is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I never thought I'd hear this much in my life. It's truly amazing. I'm able to talk on the phone again and I'm hearing video recordings in class without needing interpreters or captions. The only thing is... I'm still twitching on a daily basis and my implant falls off my thick head of hair quite often. I realized that the twitching comes from a certain pitch that the nerves in my ears can't stand.  The sound of running water has that particular pitch that makes me feel like my ear is being electrocuted, it's the strangest thing. You can imagine how often I hear running water every day especially since I'm working in a hospital where we have to wash our hands frequently. It's my number one annoyance right now.

Anyways, while January was a rough month, February is definitely looking up. Valentine's day made me think about Love. I've had more time to myself lately and I'm still trying to figure out the logic of it all. I've come to the conclusion...

Love is impervious to logic.

Love is not something you can truly explain. There is no equation or materialistic thing you can go searching for, it just happens and it's powerful.

Everyone defines love in their own way, everyone's view of love is different. It's a matter of finding that kind of love where it's exactly how you pictured it. That is what I'm looking for.... I can't sit around and let it find me or spend all my time trying to find it. It's a balance between 2 people searching for the same thing that will bring them together. I like to think I'm one day closer to finding it than I was yesterday.

The future is unwritten, so write it well...

 It's been a long time since I've posted a blog, but then again life has been nothing but hectic. School was wrapping up, graduation occurred, holidays came and went, ended up making some major changes, took the boards and passed it, got a job and now I'm enjoying my last 3 days before I start work.

I've been living by a couple quotes since the new year started...

"You never know how strong you are... until being strong is the only choice you have."


And...

"Good things come to those who wait."  

As some people may not know.. I left my fiance earlier this year... I'm not here to share the details. He is a great guy but I felt that it wasn't meant to be for the two of us.

My biggest goal in life is to have a family, to have 2-3 kids, and to make a difference. I feel like it's one of the most challenging goals I can set for myself. I want to make sure I'm with the right person before settling down with someone I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. 

It's hard not to feel pressured to settle especially since I'm getting closer to 30 every day. Good things come to those wait is something I firmly believe in. I want to find the kind of love where you can't even explain it, the kind of love where you just know, the kind of love where you stick together through thick and thin. This is the kind of love I rarely get to see, but when it's there, it's obvious to everyone around them. That is the kind of love I'm searching for and I don't care how long it takes me. 

Right now I'm taking the time to search a little deeper into myself, start a new life, make new friends and figure out what truly makes me happy.

It's hard to make drastic changes. I need time for myself. It's something I haven't had the chance to do since I've been so wrapped up in school for the last 7 years. I think it's important to take a break gain a clear perspective before charging forward once again. 

I look forward to this new phase as I'm still mending from the things I left, the people I had to hurt, and the comfort of knowing what my future was going to be like. 

The picture that says the future is unwritten, so write it well.... I hope that I make better choices, smile more, laugh more, love more, and take the time to really think about everything in general. There's no rush especially because one road can make your life totally different from another road you could have taken. I don't want to have regrets or just simply settle because it's expected of me. 

2013 has been a rough year so far, but that doesn't mean the rest has to be....